alright, I wasnt going to go into details, but I will give a quick lowdown on my trauma journey, as identification with another persons story can be the most healing thing of all.. either you will indentify with my journey, or realise, oh, you’re trauma is very different to mine, and you need further indentification with someone else.. in which case, I hope you find that space dear sister/brother!
My starseed trauma timeline; the classic starseed childhood; narcissistic parent left me pretty much borderline personality with ptsd - no idea what real parenting is leaves its own kind of brain damage.. debilitating and traumatic life-long chronic health condition, always knew I didnt belong in the matrix, sensed the darkness, aware of demons from an early age.. hung up in the new age thinking for a while, later on touched the edge of madness and needing an exorcism after mistakenly joining a corrupted goddess cult, (although was also a mission), complex ptsd, dealt with the demonic at the core of that, before spending a year saving myself from a tsunami of darkness having opened a wrong ‘door’ (A dangerous but important initiation), nearly didnt withstand feeling the energies of the dark ones torture rooms (and appalling cellular remembrance of past lives when I was in those places), twin flame saga, homelessness, trauma of the darks 3D nonsense ramping up (lockdowns, vaccines) having to rely on the evil state when my soul needs a green valley somewhere, off grid, and a beach, just to be able to breathe.. far too easy to target me when already spiritually targetted.. watching all my loved ones take the vaccine, ALL of them, trying to save my own life when needing an operation but knowing hospital would be the end of me.. stress induced brain injury, functioning low mentally and physically, no resilience left for stress and no desire to continue living through hell.. meanwhile the insanity is all around… ALL around.. zombies, everywhere, 15 minute cities, the next false flag, government spying, poisoned air, water, food, wifi.. somethings yoga don't fix.
I have no idea how I am alive, and I know many, many star seeds are in similar situations; extensive trauma from many lifetimes, dangerous missions, being targetted, losing their minds or close to. There are many who have endured worse than I, some survived, many fallen.
We are the brave who came here to end darkness once and for all. There is a time for us; to be seen for all we have really achieved. There is a time for healing, proper healing, when we can finally rest, and restore, and feel beauty again, be with our beloved God and Goddess again, in the intimate way we intrinsically know - not the greatly reduced way the limited channels to this planet allow.
It is not easy being one of us - one of the severely traumatised starseeds. we tend not to be the ones building pretty goddess temples, or turning up for a cute mainstream mass meditation, or the cacoa ceremony that may or may not be run by a dark witch. We do not have the capacity, nor any social nicety left, we cannot commit our energy to much at all for we do not know how much energy we will have or when we will have it. If we were animals, we would be the severely disturbed ones, not fit to be kept in the shelter, who will only survive if a veterinary nurse takes us home with them, to somewhere quieter and peaceful where we receive a huge amount of tender loving care whilst we stare into space wide eyed and trembling.
..accept of course we are not animals and there is no shelter for us - unless we want ot risk a psyche ward and all the darkness that can creep in there - so we limp along, trying to create our own healing with the powers we know so well but seem so far from us when we are in survival mode.
And we still here, God damn it. Even a traumatised star seed is a bright star on earth. we hold the light. we hold the light.
For those who read cobra.. he mentioned (last year?) St Germaine taking command of the surface liberation, and one of the first things he did was to remove 80% of traumatised starseeds from the solar system, freeing up the remaining 20% to really get on with the work. Now, I suspect, if he had been able to also remove star seeds directly from the surface, at least 80% of us would no longer be here either! ..including the most traumatised and the most bent this way and that by the dark leading other starseeds astray.. however.. we are still here, and I'm damned if I'll be one to hold back liberation in anyway (whilst VERY compassionate at how we HAVE been contorted this way and that and virtually all of us at some point unwittingly played into the darks hands)
Be relieved, fellow lightworkers who are walking the easier path - we thank you for all you are building. Honour your health, your energy, it is precious! Adore every day what you can do, and achieve, and do all you can! And please remember us, and our sacrific, so the new earth could be built. And when the ships come, and we traumatised ones limp aboard and finally are met with our true healing, and return as though no time has passed at all.. we’ll join you, having remembered how to smile again.
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