Dear starseeds,
..Im speaking to the especially traumatised starseeds (as usual).. We're still here, in the trenches, behind enemy lines, under fire.
Flippin. well. done.
The lurker is being taken out by the light forces full speed. It will be interesting to see how much easier our mental and emotional states are in a few weeks time, because dear GOD we NEED THE INTENSITY TO EASE UP IMMEDIATELY.
It is interesting when cobra says things like, 'this is an especially good time for inner work'.. for us traumatised star seeds, inner work is the only thing that keeps us vaguely upright day in, day out.. not even upright.. just bloody breathing. So to be told to do innerwork, as though its a choice, is a
strange as anything. Are other star seeds kicking back, able to skip it, living in such relative peace and harmony other than a few inconveniences they need REMINDING to do inner work? Are you freaking joking?!! Another part of this joke is - oh, theres even MORE to come up?!! Even MORE torment to deal with?!! Are you nuts?!!
On the other extreme to doing the innerwork just to keep breathing, there are long stretches as a traumatised star seed when doing any innerwork is impossible.. because the mind and body are so scrambled, and any energy and effort we have goes into a) scrabbling the next meal into existence, b) getting out of bed, or not, c) keeping out of a psych ward. These long stretches of purely survival are triggering as hell, because we KNOW all the inner work (and outer!) that would HELP, we are WELL versed in it, and we are DEDICATED starseeds, who once had the powers of discipline and functioning and using such tools for high levels of manifestation.. but now we have no resources to call such work into existence. So we can't apply the tools we NEED to be able to apply. It is a mindfuck. It really is. So a reminder from cobra to 'do the inner work', can be just another whip lash on an already beaten bloody, black and blue back.
Im not saying Cobra is giving out 'whip lashes', at all, but again.. you hear what Im saying. This is why I WRITE this blog.. because cobra, with all due respect, is coming from a place clearly not traumatised to the degrees a select percentage of star seeds are, and that is in no way minimising the particular challenges of HIS incredibly difficult situation and associated griefs and traumas, nor minimising our immense gratitude and love for him. Im here to provide another voice, to COMPLIMENT his. Because it is needed. Ive needed it, so Im SURE others need it.
Which brings me to the point - what do we traumatised starseeds do when we KNOW ALL the inner work and outer work required to FEEL JUST A LITTLE BIT FREAKING BETTER yet have no resources and energy to impliment these tools? .. once upon a time we believed we could ALWAYS engage these tools for ourselves, so this whole new realm of 'shattered', and 'broken' is another mindfuck in itself!
..This is when we take the pressure off. this is when we have to take the mission and place it one rung down the 'to do' list, and place at the top of the list, 'love and compassion.'.
If you would have been one of the 80% of traumatised star seeds St Germaine would have removed from Earth had he been able to (just as he removed 80% from the rest of the solar system) so you could finally get the healing you NEED, finally rest, finally stop, finally feel a modicum of OKness in your mind, body, spirit and soul (let alone content, peaceful, joyful!) ..then just stop for a moment and think about this.. you are a soldier who needed a stretcher and four stretcher bearers to take you OFF the battlefield, savely deliver you into the hands of some rosey-cheeked nurses in the hospital tent, with your wounds lovingly tended to until you were all restored to health. There would have been NO QUESTION of you returning to the front. There would have been the deep HONOURING of all you had achieved WHILST at the front, the LOOKS OF DEEP RESPECT, and every need tended to.
In the absence of St Germains stretcher bearers, my dearest long suffering brothers and sisters.. I extend to you the HONOURING, the LOOKS OF DEEP RESPECT, and energetically at least EVERY NEED TENDED TO.. until the time you really can be stretchered out of here.
..I hope even just the thought of this brings you a deep sigh into compassion for yourself, a little softening, and a whole lot of acceptance. You are a hero. This should all have been over by now. Go gently. Go so so gently with yourself.
We need you here, in whatever capacity you can still manage to be here. We need you. We need you. Just as you are.
ps, cobra shared some great links in the last post I believe.. including a link to a fellow starseed collating information on the lurker. Worth checking out IF YOU HAVE THE FACILITY to do a little more untangling. and if not.. just shout into the ethers for the lurker to fuck off. Does wonders I find.
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